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About 9 days later 2008 will finish and 9th year of 2000s will start.New year means nearly same things for most of us.Some of us are waiting for changes : A more successful year in school,more happiness,more money,maybe a love...In brief, a new year is coming with a pocket of hopes.But everbody is not happy with new year.A new year means price increase for lots of people.By January,the winter will have been more effective.This will affect the fuel prices.So,the picture of the new year is not the same in all people's minds,unfortunately...
For me,it doesn't have an importance.Because the school will continue and actually everything will go on same.For me a new year begins with summer holiday.With summer holiday,things changes.But,still, I have some hopes inside.That night I will wish for something.I will hope for my plans and wait for them.I will want peace for humankind.I wiil want health for my family and my friends.I will want a love for my poor heart :)

I hope a new year comes with its beauty and surprises...
Have a good year !

.::90s::.

Last Saturday by chance I coincided with Okan Bayülgen's program on tv.I began watching and really enjoyed.I realised how much I missed those days.And also I realised how fast the world changed.People's clothing style,hair style and so on.I remembered the songs I forgot.Normally,I still listen 90s' songs but there are a lot of which I couldn't remember.I tried to find them and every song made me very happy.I thought that I'm really getting older.When I was a child these songs are new and I listened them in a simple mood.I used to have difficulty in understanding all of the lyrics.But now I can understand all of them.They are all beautiful and meaningfull songs.For this good idea thank you Okan Bayülgen :)

..::Boats out of Watermelon Rinds::.. // ..::Karpuz Kabuğundan Gemiler Yapmak::..

Hope...

Dream...

Love...

INNOCENCE...

DISAPPOINTMENT...

With a great folksong "Beyaz giyme toz olur" this film took the first order in my favorite list.It was represented in 2004.Then,I heard about it but didn't watch.I watched the film in holiday two weeks ago.After I searched about the film,I understood that the director Ahmet Ulucay told himself in the film.He always wanted to be director and at the end he carried out.Unfortunately he is ill now.I hope he would be better soon.
I want to tell you about the film a bit.The film was shooted in Tavsanlı,Kütahya.The leading role actor -Kadir Kaymaz- is an amateur.But he plays like a professional man.With his close friend (it is about 40 years ago) they want to create a film-machine.But it would not be easy of course.Nobody believes them except for the madman of the village -Ömer-.They endavoured a lot and at the end they carried out.They prepared everthing by hand.Beside all of the things,there is a fire in Mehmet's heart.He falls in love with a girl who is older than him.She never could answer to his love.Mehmet works as a watermelon seller in Tavşanlı,but their work falls away and Mehmet has to go back to his village.He wrotes a letter to Nihal.But before he is answered,Nihal and her family moves to another place.Mehmet gets disappointed again.He decides to major on film-making.But a bad surprise waits him.Mad Ömer makes all of the machines broken.The boats to which Mehmet loaded his hopes go to the bottom...

Obligations...

As most of us feel nowadays,I feel sad and helpless.Because that wonderful holiday is finishing in two days.Again,lessons will begin and also exams...Next time I will come to my home when school finish.I think it's about at the end of January.Besides,this year it will my first new-year's day that I will be outside from home and away from my family.If Tekirdağ was close to Ankara,I would go to home but it is not...Luckiliy,my best friend is at Metu,too.This helps me feel happy.
As I walk around at home,I feel a deep sorrow...I know,nothing will be the same anymore.I never will be the same as I was in the past.I will always be a guest at my home.No matter how long a holiday it is,one day it will finish and again come bact to my real place..School or work or a new home...Time is a big liar...19 years passed so fast.How I wish to be a child right now.But never,I will be..I can't catch the time.Monday I will be in Ankara.In the morning I will be in Tekirdağ and then in the evening I will be in Ankara...What a big destruction !
I know,I know it is an obligation.Yes,we can do nothing...but..How should I know,I can't adjust myself.

// anKARA \\

It was raining heavily...Last Friday,while supping my tea and looking outside,sat and thought Why I could NOT like this city?I didn't find the answer again...Ankara is the heart of Turkey,It embraces the whole Anatolia,it is the interface of all the ways.I remembered Cemal Süreya's verses : "...Ben Uzunminareliyimdir doğma büyüme,ne yapıp denizi görmek isterim..." I never thought before,I would miss such a lot of..Really,I saw Sea in my dreams...I will die of sorrow here.Such a sorrow that I can not tell to anyone.Noone can understand me.
I hate Ankara.Because :
-Dry-Cold-Serious-Formal
-The only activity of most people going to big shopping centres sprinkled around the city.
-Sealess-only artifact waters...
-Full of people who have to catch somewhere...Their eyes are on their clocks..
-People,all of them under umbrellas...
-People's the only scene is city lamps!
-Construction everywhere!
-Sad people...Strange and cold...

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You can say GO then...I will,I will...Next year...I HOPE ...